abk Journey: Moments of Truth

“The most important conversations you’ll ever have are the ones you’ll have with yourself.”-David Goggins

During the month of December, by my standards, I was a slacker. Body pain, holiday food, and a slight general disinterest were the culprits for the time off, but I knew there would be consequences. Like everything along the journey, I just had to own it.

My favorite thing about golf is that I get out of it what I put into it. Grind away, and I get better. Take December off, and I start to suck.

“In life, there is no gift as overlooked or inevitable as failure. I’ve had quite a few and have learned to relish them, because if you do the forensics you’ll find clues about where to make adjustments and how to eventually accomplish your task.”- also David Goggins

Last Sunday, I played in a little informal $20 competition for the first time in eons. I stunk up the joint. I hit my driver everywhere. I never felt comfortable. My left wrist and right hip never went to work. I watched as two of my playing partners made mince meat out of the course, one quite surprising and one acting like the professional that he is. I felt light years away from the latter, which is odd given that two to three months ago, we played a round together step by step, shot by shot.

It was a good wake up call. Time to get back with the program.

It is an odd feeling to have done two and a half years of work, achieve what I have achieved, and literally feel like I am underachieving. I have been blessed with some incredible things that I can do with my body. I have been blessed with a sharp mind, an endless imagination, a never ending will, and an infinite ability to adjust.

But I have also been cursed with certain limitations on my body that I am constantly trying to push. I don’t think I am anywhere near maxing out those limitations, but it’s been a 25 year battle between the brain knowing what to do and the body being able to make the necessary adjustments.

We are not talking skipping down the street. We are talking about exact wrist angles, the hips and arms moving in beautiful rhythm, etc.

My first 2022 tournament is scheduled for February 21. The goal is to play nine to eleven tournaments this year: some pro-ams, some pro-pros, some individual championships.

If my competitive soccer past is any indication, I’ll have myself ready. I love a competition. I love an audience. I love to play when it means something.

Although, some afternoons I just want to come home and hug the kids.

Have a great week.-Benj

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